You have gone away
And I’m afraid you’ll stay gone
I want to see you
I don’t live to write, sometimes I just get the notion.
I feel the need to compare his eyes to the ocean.
I’ve only seen it twice and I’ve never been close enough to gaze into his eyes.
I want to compare his soul to every beautiful thing I’ve ever seen, tasted, felt.
I want to know his stories but all I know is that he loves strawberries and the blues.
I want to reach out, I want to touch him, I want his hands to lace into mine but there is a distance between us.
A distance I may never surpass.
You’re breaking my heart
It’s over, I’m not ready
I always need you
I can’t believe you
I can’t think you can stay gone
Just don’t forget me
Last night was lonely
And then today I grew up
I wont wait for you
You are forgetting yourself;
You’ll remember
But it’s your choice.
If you wait too long
I may not remember.
Or I may not care.
The autumn cold seeps into my bedroom
Filling my sheets with invisible, icy waves.
The night is whispering
and I hear your song in the wind.
The way you left me ,
So slowly, feels like a house full of sleeping children
When all I want to do is sing loud, angry songs
And those warm words you forced me to memorize,
I recite them in the mornings,
I scream them during my sleepless nights,
I sing them because I can’t remember any other song,
I dream of your words,
Of your promises,
Of the house I will never share with you.
And I tell myself, “You must move on. You must forget.”
And for a while I do.
Until I remember again.
I’ve fallen for you
And now I can’t eat or dream
I sleep in darkness
Got Tom Waits playing
Singin’ of a pretty gun
Reminds me of you
I got the whisper of your memory
Followin’ me down every dark alley
I encounter you and your mocking ghost
You and your laughable plans
(or lack thereof)
You and your cool grace and your cigarettes
and that stupid, beautiful way you shrug your shoulders
And I loathe you, and I despise your carelessness
I walk around and everywhere I go
I got your goddamn ghost
choking me
